Hi. My name is Ellena Beryl. It means shine bright like a diamond. My parent said they named me like that because when i growing up, i will being a lady that shining brightly.... like a diamond. Huh? You think my mommy is Rihanna? Uh, maybe.
Do you know? Actually i wanna tell y'all about my new friend, Aray Fabrizio Rex. And everyone called him Rex.
He's my schoolmate. I knew him since 8th grade, but i think he already knew me about 1 year ago. Look by my pointview, he's an ordinary boy. His face, personality....everything. In my knowledge, Rex is such as a bad boy. He can absence [in his class] until 3 days a week!
Lately, Rex became my budd. We usually talk by chatting. When we'd getting friend, he said that he likes me. He asked me, how was my feeling to him. Then i got speechless. Rex wanted me to answer it honestly, then i did. This the conversation look like:
Rex knows the best trick to make me flying high. But everytime he admiring me, i refrain. I won't give him a-false-hope. We are friend.
When the 9th grade had the practical test, we must running around our school field, three times. I got the first! By the test, i knew that Rex is smoker. He can't run too far and fast. Fyi, i hate smoke. My dad is a smoker and i hate him sometimes.
Then i ask him about that. 'yes. i don't want you to know it from anyone else. i plead,' he said. Rex also tell me that he won't smoke again. If he do it, he will die. And i remember that.
After we passed the exam, Rex starting to smoke again. He broke his own promise. I got angry, and i tell him he-must-stop-smoking. Sooner or later. Must. Or, i'm not his friend anymore. And....deal.
One day, he ask me something i hate, and fool me i don't understand for a minute. This the conversation look like:
At first, i think everything's 'really' gonna be alright between us. But Rex has different mind.
"I think you want me to do everything like this because 'something'. I feel enslaved by you. Now i think we can act like we never know each other," he says.
Hello? I think we are just friend, and you understand it. I getting upset and say, "Is it wrong if i don't want my friend die just because smoke a lot? You think all this time, everything i ever did... for whom? Myself? Think again!"
"I'm getting disgusted with you real character. You rude!" When Rex said it, i feel like slapped right on my face.
And i just can say, "I'm sorry not as perfect as you think."
Then, we're not friend anymore.
Overall, it make a bit pain. Do you think he is a crush? Maybe. I didn't know my real feeling for him, yet. I've ever thought i like him, but i still love one. The old crush.
I wish God help me to solve this question mark in my head.
*ps: maap kalo grammar/vocab nya banyak salah-_-
